Things I've Learned - June 8, 2024

We can get by with very little money right now, mostly because when I was rolling in money, we made predominately good purchasing decisions. Those prior good decisions are what is enabling us to survive right now. No steady income for the last two years. We have sold whatever we could and are now left with nothing else to sell. Hubby makes the house payment and most of the utilities. Every month we game out which one of the utilities we can let go of. Most months we opt to get rid of the internet. We can use our phones for most things. We need gas for cooking and the electricity for the fridge and lights. If we had to pick between electricity and gas, we would also drop the gas. It’s a weird reality to go from making over 100K to making nothing. I’m white, American, unvaxxed and conservative. This makes me invisible to all applicant tracking systems.

A report has come out to show that foreign born people are the only ones experiencing job growth since February 2020. Americans’ employment rate has dropped below it’s 2019 level (Trump admin) and stayed there.

We all know that biden is a traitor, this new report is something that I felt, but now it has been substantiated. Not only are Americans being let go and foreigners getting their jobs, but wages across the board for everyone are plummeting, especially for my field.

The deep state wants us destitute, sick, dying or dead. So what’s a girl to do in the face of that? Disconnect and detox.

I have been at the top of my professional game for the last decade or so. Now I am taking this down time to develop my spirituality, faith and physical well being.

We have been blessed, as I previously stated with having made predominately good decisions with our money when we had it. We can survive at this level until next Spring when Trump is back in the white house. My mental state has adopted this as a doable situation, I’m not ruling out anything wonderful falling in my lap in the meantime, but we are stable now and will remain so until next Spring.

I ran out of my rather “important” and “necessary for life” medication. I was told that I was going to die without this medication. I knew I was going to run out six months before it happened as I counted the pills that I had left. No money to pay for a doctor visit, no insurance and no money to fill an Rx if I was given one. In the past when I accidentally skipped a dose, severe things happened in my body. The way I handled the coming withdrawal was to detox and fortify my body to the best of my ability for the proceeding 6 months such that, in a perfect world, my body could withstand the coming onslaught.

I switched out: my laundry soap, laundry conditioner, laundry static sheets, toothpaste, body lotion, dish soap, hand soap, shampoo, hair conditioner and hair dye. These are all now completely natural items, most of which I make myself.

We stopped buying all things that require cash (like light bulbs, batteries, bleach, etc) when we run out of those things, we live without them for now. We have exactly enough money to pay our mortgage and basic utilities. We swallowed our pride and got food stamps for food items.

For food, we only eat sourdough that I make, no other bread. I grow most veggies, fruit and herbs that we need and we are stuck buying whatever meat and basic food staples from the store.

I’ve grown my spirituality and faith. As each day goes by I swim in gratitude for what I have, what I’ve had and this beautiful life I’ve been given. I can never seem to get past gratitude, I dwell on things, but those things quickly turn into what I’m grateful for and I stay there. Gratitude has become my default setting. Meditating is not clicking for me because gratitude keeps creeping into every thought, every fiber, oh well.

This current result of all of the above is I did not, in fact, die. The medication was not, in fact, necessary. My body went through a few months of withdrawal that I did not think I was going to live through, it hurt, but it did not kill me.

My skin no longer has rashes, my pores are closing on my face, especially my nose area. My eyes are clearer, my thoughts are clearer and I’ve noticed a greatly diminished amount of times that I forget things. I stretch every day right after I make my bed. This is now much easier to do. I’m not that hungry anymore, I do get hungry, but not nearly as much. It is totally possible to easily loose weight after 40. My hair took a year to stop freaking out, but now it looks and feels so much better and it is growing longer again, which is weird. My clothes look better for longer. My relationship with my husband has strengthened considerably. My armpits are not as stinky as they used to be. This list goes on and on really.

So yeah, I did not die, yet, and some things got better. I learned that life makes a way.

Much love,

KC